So funny it hurts

I want to cry, Dinosaur Comics is so rad today.

So, weekend! It was very emotional for me. I haven't cried in a while and man did I do a good job of it there! I have a hard time leading large groups of people, especially a loud, high/drunk rowdy group of people. And then all my storytime prep didn't get used for various reasons. I was tired and nervous and a little hungry and as soon as our Vanessa/Leila group activity ended I dissolved faster than I ever have before. Luckily, there were good people on hand from all quarters! At first I was mad at Leila for making a unilateral decision but afterwards realized that A) she was as uncomfortable with the whole thing as I was and B) the best part of the whole thing was preparing with her all week. We got to spin poi and hang out and be creative. I see why Francisco likes her so much. So much freakin energy coming out of that girl. Maybe too much for me.

On the way out Ted, Audrey and I went to this rocky river and climbed all sorts of rocks. The water was Carribean colored. Really fantastic. Audrey, you are one of the bravest people I know. I was very impressed with all your rock sliding (there were these smooth rocks that people could slide down into 3 levels of swimming holes but I was of the poultry variety). Oh god, and the day before we drove to Yuba river to go swimming and this one dude fell out of a tree onto his back just as we were arriving! He ended up getting airlifted out, but not before losing consciousness, regaining consciousness, smoking a cigarette while being completely immobilized, and then suddenly jumping out of the water and cursing the medical staff. I think he was in shock, or else really drunk.

Gosh, I don't really feel like summing up events right now. I'm just gonna say...people were pretty great. Damn sad to be leaving, but in that good way. Last campout was exciting and an excellent time but this one hit me harder and I'll remember it longer. I'm ready to be surprised at every turn, like my heart has just taken a deep breath and is holding it waiting waiting. I need some serious chest binding, or my body's gonna go all Tetsuo Shima.