30 Day Challenge Day 6

Good question, what am I eating?

-A fuckton of fresh fruit
-Dehydrated crackers and chips (I made some awesome sweet potato chips)
-Salads with homemade nut pates and dressings
-Mushrooms stuffed with chopped up fresh herbs and other veggies
-Energy salad, this amazing cuisinarted dish joe and kris made with every veggie and fruit we have in the house, topped with hot sauce
-Handfuls of dried dates and nuts/seeds
-Veggies rolled up in nori and dipped in shoyu
-Thinly sliced portabella and tomato marinated in fresh basil, oregano, and olive oil

I have future plans to make:

-Turnip based raviolis with raw marinara sauce
-More official-looking maki sushi using a cauliflower and/or sprouted quinoa based "rice"
-Desserts
-A fruit spread
-Something to use up that fresh asparagus we have, hmmm
-More sweet potato chips!

Am doing really good at this challenge! Saturday night I had some non-organic wine, but then I found out that still counts as raw! So I guess the only cheating I've done is when I had a couple drags of Francisco's cigarette that night. But I don't think it matters. My opinion is that if you're following such a healthy diet, you shouldn't really need to regulate drug consumption because it will just fall into place naturally, that you won't decide to use those substances as often because you'll be feeling so good but if you do it's not the end of the world. As long as you have plenty of raw snacks around to satisfy those inevitable drunk munchies.

Doin good at the yoga challenge too, although that one is harder for me. It's a lot of work. But I feel really really alive. Feeling alive doesn't necessarily mean feeling happy. There's a subtlety to sadness I haven't paid much attention to, which is sadness lived fully and within a rich and fulfilling life. I think maybe modern society views sadness as wrong (it does, don't you think?) because it is only in the depths of sadness that we see how off balance our lives and the whole system are. It's easier to ignore facts of your life that are stagnating or unendurable when you're riding on a happy high, than when you're upset. Being upset about one thing often evolves to being upset about everything, at least for me. But there is a better kind of sadness that perhaps I've felt at various times my whole life but that usually gets overshadowed by the kinda depressed numb or angry sadness I'm used to experiencing. I have to pay more attention. Controlled attention is the only way to see what's really going on, and make more conscious decisions. I don't want to be ripped along on a path that feels as though someone other than me is paving it. I want a life I can review in the end and claim as mine. One that reacts to circumstances fully, and not out of fear or anger or boredom. It makes it a better game that way too.