Dim Sum World

I feel ravenously good this morning. I could eat the whole world. Why is beyond me, as last night was yet ANOTHER night out. What the hell Vanessa. You should be home cleaning the kitchen.

Naahh.

I've got this muscle-y back right now. I've always admired good backs, and now I have one of them! Thank god I'm not 18 with bacne anymore. Anyone need a back model?

I still feel bad about things, but hopefully we'll be having a good lunch today and talk things over. Peter counseled me last night to just create some space for him, maybe not go out to things if he's excited about something and I could take it or leave it. I was thinking along those lines yesterday, and Peter pushed me over the edge not to go to yokels. I've gotta do something for Peter, he's a neat guy. Maybe cook dinner for movie night or something....

Oh no, I'm just remembering those drunk texts I sent to the guys after I went home and they continued their night out at the strip club. Why didn't I save those texts so I could look at them this morning!? Well, no harm done. It's kinda funny getting texts from someone while at the same time they are admiring boobs.

I apologize that I haven't had anything meaningful to say lately. My life has been too full for contemplation. Normally at this point I start feeling a little panicky about the lack of reflection, but something new and different is happening. It's good not to be so controlling on my psyche, I think. It feels like that annoying overlord accounting for all my mistakes and lists and worrying about the future is gone. No one's keeping track, who's driving this train? I guess there is no train. I'm glad my mom understands why I'm not all pumped up and applying to schools right now. She was laying the pressure on me because it gets harder to go back to school the longer you wait, but it feels like it would be easier and easier to be a student right now, just because I'd find it more interesting and special. I'm not too worried about my brain getting out of shape. It's a good brain I have, I'm very proud of it. I've always felt a little bit smarter than both my parents, which is shocking to admit, but probably means (if I'm right) that they raised me in a very learning-friendly environment, at least compared to their childhoods, because I am definitely my parents' biological child, so the genetics explanation is out. Learning is a different thing from other forms of physical development, science seems to show that environment is the major factor, whereas your appearance or motor skills are more gene-based.
Alright alright, no duh Vanessa. I think it's time for morning tea, yay!