Maybe I'm getting sick. Why does it take disease to remind me of basic things? We had a good Halloween, I ate gallons of crap and admired babies. I baked cookies with the most amazing butter icing (2/3c butter, 4c confectioners sugar, 2 T milk, all creamed together until your arm is gonna fall off, then mix in colorings and flavorings)and was eating those all day at work, and then we went to Kevin and Leslie's where Leslie had made mountains more goodies, and then Brenda and Clodagh showed up carrying homemade chocolate covered pretzels and strawberries. Holy crap, those are like 2 of my favorite desserts ever. Especially when the chocolate is good, which it was. Francisco drove me home and I had a cigarette of his to blow out the excess sugar from my system. I haven't had a cigarette in a long time, maybe that's what pushed my body over the edge. Today my throat is gravelly, my body feels low energy, I couldn't go back to sleep this morning, and I SO do not want to be here this morning. Maybe I'll go home early, there isn't much work other than the usual backlog to do today. I can feel crystals of crap built up in my joints and around my eyes. My lymph nodes are sluggishly processing away. My body doesn't have enough memory to process this, I'll have to shut down a few applications, get back to basics. Sit in bed reading or writing, maybe go to a movie. I wish I had a bathtub. Maybe I'll go to the gym and not work out, just hang out in the steam room or sauna. I've got dance rehearsal tonight, hope I can manage it. We have a performance this weekend! 9:30 on Sunday at Happy. They're having a day of the dead festival, not sure exactly how African dance fits into that theme.

I am ridiculously excited about teaching tap dance to Brenda. The more I think about it, the more I remember. It would be good if I could find a place with a balance bar, that was very useful for learning good control over steps, and she's 8 months pregnant and a bit wobbly as it is I bet. For now we're gonna go over some stuff at Marine Manor this weekend. I'm trying to remember all the basic steps, like shuffle ball change, shuffle hop step, brush forward and backward steps, the basic time step....The stuff from tap that usually comes to mind is more complicated stuff like cramp rolls and whatever those various types of traveling pull backs are called. Or that step where you brush both legs out and then back in while swooping your arms around in a big circle. I always liked those. I'll call them tap jumping jacks. Ooh ooh, what was that turning step where you end pointing one toe? Guess I'm gonna have to make up some names if I actually want to be a teacher. It was always funny teaching English and finding out what the actual grammatical terms are for various concepts we normally don't give one thought to. Teaching is fun because it forces you to REALLY know something first. You can't pretend with teaching. I might say I know basic mechanical physics, but I bet I don't know it well enough to teach it. Maybe college should force students to become teachers more often instead of administering tests. Non-stop presentations or small group work. I guess those ideas are out there already, but it unfortunately wasn't my education experience. I wish I could go through school now at 26. Force people to go do boring work for several years before starting college. THEN they'd pay attention. Office admin work wouldn't be so bad if we all had to do it, and it only lasted 5 years or so.