Clarity

Sometimes it's really scary to have a clear head, because you know exactly what you need but are not quite ready to adapt to solve that need. Also, you're fully aware of how to solve your own shortcomings, but still stubbornly refuse to accept the solution hitting your head.

Anyway.

We just got home after seeing the new Will Smith movie Hancock. I am in bed with The Sneak. I can tell she's been outside because her fur is on the cold side. Before the movies we went on a little hike around Muir beach. It was good to be outside. We visited Green Gulch Farm and sat around for a while in a zen spot surrounded by apple trees and bamboo. That place would be fun to meditate and farm at for a couple weeks. The produce looked healthy and easy to grow. I wonder if I've ever eaten anything from there. I wonder if I could grow stuff like that. My NZ roommate said it takes years to get a good feel for gardening.

I have a job interview this week. It's close to what I want to do, but not ideal. I want something perfect to come through, but I also don't want to wait too long. I think perhaps it's not a terrible thing to give a clear picture of my goals and dreams during the interview, and then accept the job if they decide to hire me. We'll all be on the same page, and they'll know what I want, and that I'm planning on going back to school. Then if something perfect shows up, no one will be surprised if I decide to change jobs.

I just found out that even though I had zero US income last year, I still receive an economic stimulus check, since I declared in my taxes that I earned money in NZ. $300, surprise! Here Vanessa, have some food for a few weeks. You earned it. Love, the US government. My check comes on Friday supposedly.

I wonder if the NZ gov owes me any money, since I didn't work a full year there but was taxed as though I did. Wouldn't that just be AMAZING!?