Potential

I was definitely getting down again yesterday about the whole plateau-ed job hunt, but things are starting to gear up again. I have an interview next week at this hearing aid center, where I would act as a consultant, testing people's hearing aids, checking their ears for wax, and some reception/admin stuff. That sounds kind of neat yeah? I've always liked audition (not auditions though). My career plan continues to take shape, and I may be enrolling in a 10 week medical assisting course sometime in the next few months. I can't afford it, but, eh, what's another $2100 on top of my existing loans, right? It really depends what kind of job I get. If I manage to land something that offers opportunites for medical direct-patient-contact advancement, or that provides such training, then I won't need to take the course. The goal right now is to have medical responsibility for at least a year, so that I can get into a Physician Asst. program. Yup, I've pretty much decided that the naturopathic program isn't for me. Too many questions, not enough proof. My heart is still a scientist. Sort of a hippy scientist. I figure the PA program is half as long, half as expensive, scientifically sound, and will allow me to be semi-autonomous in future jobs (unlike an RN, but more like a Nurse Practitioner), thereby giving me the opportunity to infuse my practice with a holistic, mind-body connection, nutrition and healthy lifestyle-heavy slant.

I mean, things aren't great, but at least the plan is there, glittering above just beyond eyesight. I earned $390 last week after taxes, which is not a happy number. It's hard for me to imagine breaking even, let alone funding future studies, getting health insurance, or even, yikes, putting some away into savings, but I'm trying not to worry too much. Live in the moment. Breathe it in and start the disco machine. It's Friday afternoon, can you feel it? Potential snaps in the air, crisp and fresh. Everyone is holding their breath. Streets and signs, floors and tables, bodies and minds are being wiped down and scrubbed up, just to be made broken and dirty again. The great cycle of rebirth. It happens every week. It's happening right now.