Worms

Every spring the worms come out and flood the sidewalk. Or at least, they do on the East Coast. They don't do that in CA. There's not enough rain to encourage that sort of soil exodus. This morning I found myself missing that experience. It's not even spring, but I'm in a spring mood. Probably because of my whole messed up world clock. Are you feeling the spring in NZ yet? Are things fresh and new?

It's October 1st people. That's a good date. C'mon, is there anyone who hates on October? It's the best month. Comes in like a lamb and ends with candy. Everything is starting to die. We start planning our Christmas vacations (unless you're one of those crazy people that does that in July.) Finally it's ok to be just a little bit goth. One year when I was living in Boston, I visited Salem, Massachusetts in late September. Right at the beginning of their tourist season. The haunted houses were fun, but the thing that struck me the most was that EVERY SINGLE LOCAL TEENAGER WAS GOTH. That was the standard. How weird is that?

I went to the So-You-Think-You-Can-Dance live show last night. It was fascinating. The flashing lights gave me a migraine though. They were so bright that my eyes were tearing up for most of the show, and when I got home I jumped straight into bed to avoid the attack. I woke up today in that weird hovering migraine state, where it probably won't ever get really bad, but it won't go away with normal techniques. Sometimes when I cut a migraine off by going to sleep (and not taking any pain medicine), it seems get stuck on pause for 20 hours. Whatever, it's bearable, and mildly interesting at this low level. Small pain --> fascinating Large pain --> fuck fuck FUCK!

Oh wow, I didn't realize how much I had to write about. I keep remember more topics. This past weekend I did my volunteer training at Charlotte Maxwell, the complementary/alternative cancer clinic for low income women. It was a draining, intense experience. Lots of art and drama therapy, topics such as the horrifying politics of cancer, a 3 hour medical overview of mainstream therapies, some demos with alternative therapies (we went on a guided therapeutic imagery tour), racism, sexism, and other cultural competency isms, a panel discussion with some patients, how to deal with grief, and an amazing group of women to do it all with.

Allen also visited us this weekend. I missed most of the Allen time, due to the above, but it was nice eating sushi with him. Before that, Kate was out here. It was really great to see her. We had a really chill couple of days. I took some time off work and lay around in Golden Gate park with her. Ah. It's hard to ignore my big sister impulses and not worry about her. She definitely doesn't need a second Mom doing that though, so I had to remind myself to be chill. What's important is that we got to hang out. It would be good to make it a regular thing, since we live so close.

I'd really like to do nothing tonight. It's been an intense week or two. Very emotional. Very introspective as well, but not in the relaxing way. I've received a couple of intense emails from NZ, and feel myself being spread around the globe, disintegrating and being absorbed by various powerful forces. At least my ego's laying low.