Body fail

I should've taken X to the emergency room. Instead I let her drive herself home. I asked a few times if I could take her to the hospital, and she said no, instead instructing me to call her primary care physician for specialist referrals. Specialist referrals can take days. We don't have days. (And why the hell didn't the doctor's office instruct her to immediately go to the hospital? Instead they waited a couple hours before calling back.) I called her friend who is meeting her at her house. I hope she made it there ok. I should've given her the cell phone, because she's misplaced hers. Does that count as a symptom of disorientation? She seemed mostly coherent, but barely able to speak, and symptoms of what my mom called acute liver failure. She's been sick for over a month now, but it didn't seem so serious before (I still thought she should see a doctor though. I mean, 5 weeks!). I think she's lost like 10 pounds since Friday. oh god oh god why didn't I take her to the hospital. Don't say no when someone offers to take you to the emergency room, they only offer it when they're freaked out by how bad you look.

That's it, I need more than just cpr/first aid certification. I need EMT or paramedic training. I want to be useful in emergencies. People's bodies fail them all the time. I've never felt more grateful for my functioning body than right now.

Crap, I really hope this all works out. Why the hell am I blogging. Because I don't know what else to do. Next time this happens, I'll know what to do, and it won't involve the internet.